sweet scent 'o' memories

I try to reach you
in the lyrics of the
songs i listen to
Browsing through the
playlist on my phone
we even spend some time
I suddenly smile when
someone is speaking to me
cuz i get drenched
in your memory
And i feel our silence
communicate in every
word i write
I adapt to your habbits
whenever you are not around
cuz it makes me want to smile
And i dont even leave
the left over ice
for it makes that soft crushing sound
So again i get drenched
in the soft rain of your thoughts
which always fills me up with joy
Its then that i see you smiling wide
and you make me want to smile
I like getting drenched in your memory
cuz then i can smile all day while

Just these shades...

a splash of color stretched vividly,
not on an empty canvas
but on an art piece in shades of grey,
either extremes possible,
but the best written in fate,
adding a surreal meaning to this colorless truth,
turning it into fiction,
into a beautiful composition indeed,
both so amused with life,
just with company high is attained,
a relative quotient that multiplies,
when brought togather,
cuz you are the best company ever,
and the timid selves that we are,
is a mutual substance,
that gets us to back each other for support,
i say its magical and its best,
cuz its mutual and its unsaid,
its nice when we just play all the time,
i throw words you create rhyme,
pick a beat tap the ground,
step ahead with the sound,
and dance our heart out,
feels like just hallucinating,
to be able to surpass the world around,
this all must seem redundant,
but to me this just isn't enough,
to be able to share the joy of this day,
the joy of your presence,
of your existence in my life,
just these are the shades that color my frame,
and thats all this day is about for me,
happy birthday koodi sonpapdi.

Feedback..

When you showed me the kind of connection you have had

and the kind of relation you share with them - you asked me for a feedback

"what could have i said, its difficult to put few things in words"

finally this is what i could say

i'll  explain  you  with  an  example

example  of  me,  after  what  i  saw

a  treasured  memorandum

an  adventuruous  journey  of  ur  life

i  feel  a  brute  fruition

in  a  hollow  space  inside

which  has  shrunk  my  heart  even  more

cuz  i've  realized  what  a  dead  soul  i  am...

i  try  to  recall  if  i  have  ever  connected  that  way..

i  wanted  to  connect,  there  was  a  need  to  connect

so  i  did,

to  fiction,  to  dreams..

i  literally  lived  in  a  virtual  world..

what  connection  i  saw  was  a  devine  connection

something  which  i  really  look  up  to  now  and  even  wonder

"how  does  it  feel  to  connect  with  real  people?"

have  i  even  known  that  feeling???

"its  a  big  hint  to  do  i  know  how  does  it  feel  to  connect  with  real  people"

all  these  people,  whatever  idea  they  have  about

each  other  and  friendship  is  because  they  got  to  know  you.

"i used to close my eyes to real things, but now i dont" -

cuz i know that you are real

P.S i love you

While watching ps i love u
got this vision..
time is seperating us
but i m trying to hold on tight..
i see holding ur hand
but being pulled apart to the full stretch
i cant leave you now
how jerry had a plan...
i see you having too..
but just this thought,
got me terribly worried
of the day wen our college days will end
i dont wanna lose you
i will make an attempt
i'm going to have a plan
i will love you till the END..

Feelings put in words when i lost what once was mine

Want to feel like a free falling entity,
weightless,
heart doesen't seem to pump blood properly,
arteries feel clogged,
be it for a fraction of second
i want all the blood in my body
to flow with full force,
this release of pressure
might be painful,
be it like a bleeding fountain,
i have to bear it,
cuz a part of them i took
which didn't belong to me,
needs to be free,
wish it could burst out all at once
and release me, releive me.

Doubtful mind

I really wonder how our mind grows
till an age there is no sense and sensibility
Things totally changed
ever since my mind developed,
i have had an improved level of intellect
i started thinking over things cuz i was able to judge and justify
since then the debate within me about myself has been going on
i never liked people being judgemental about me,
their comments always made a huge impact on me
they made me conscious, they made me change..
that is another thing i hated
ever since ive got brains enough to think
alot has changed....
now i wonder upon the misty past
try to wipe the window pane to see clear
still cannot see what was it then
how was it then
was i happy???
or am i happy now...
i know it wont change back to what it was
though must have been good
whatever be the case..
i know i do believe in fate
and whatever be the change
my instincts tell me they were for good
hence, it will be
if it were for bad
it would have been difficult to accept.
but still i dont know why
i wish things could remain the same

Imagination

Full of spirit
Flying high,
So high that I
touched the sky,
Wind would blow
like music notes flow,
With a murmuring sound
they created a rhyme...
looking at the clouds
my stomach did growl,
Felt like cotton candies
melting in my mouth,
Beyond all the layers
of atmosphere
where there is space,
i was dancin and shinin
with stars in grace...
Now i know
where i stand,
with my mind intact
imaginatioon lets me
create an impact
turn it to real
and even beyond
as if it were
some spooky spell
or mabe it was
a magic wand...